such a long journey

so its so hard to believe that we've been here 5 months now. my gosh what a struggle it has been. i must say tho most of our neighbors in our building are nice, but the people out here are so impossibly rude. I am so ready to be outta here. We are even thinking about me and jacob movin back to fresno for a few months til we get things settled a bit with our next move coming up probably in february but most likely march. I do not want to have the baby here and plus im super nervous if I go into labor without Jonathan being around I will have to take Jacob with me and who will watch him? Jonathan said that the nurses have to take care of him but is that really their job? Ugh, I dunno I mean I have a few friends back home but they are all mostly busy too and my family, they are all super busy so I dunno. Gosh, its so annoying not knowing where we are gonna be moving to. Thats to say that Jonathan will finish and graduate from his course, which I know he will. Im kinda ready to be closer to my family so they can enjoy Jacob and the new little one. It was so hard on everyone when grandma passed away. I know I wasnt there but I know how hard it must have been. We were actually almost on the road to this crap place the day after the funeral. I actually picked Jonathan up from the airport the day of the funeral. I know she would understand that we couldnt have been there. I so miss her and wish she could tell me her crazy baby dreams that I know she would've had before we found out I was pregnant. I know that she is watching over us and will continue to watch over us wherever we go!
So Jonathans on night shift the next two weeks! YAY! (not so much tho). i really hate him bein on night shift. We really dont see him at all. I cant even keep my eyes open sometimes to read Jacobs books while putting him to bed; let alone wait til midnight or later until he gets home. Then Jacob and I are up early while he sleeps in til who knows when. Then by 1:30 hes off to work.
As far as the nausea, my goodness, im hoping soon there will be a little relief. Its just a constant ALL day and night thing that never seems to let up. It makes it impossible sometimes to get anything done. I never seem to catch a break and rest. If I sit down, I fall asleep, so I have to keep doing something to pass the time.
So my next official ob appointment isnt until october 8th which will be in the complicated ob since I had so many problems when I was pregnant with Jacob. We are very hopeful tho that things will be better this time and not be so difficult although this nausea stuff is not at all fun!!!